The desire accomplished is sweet to the soul...

We all have desires, some small and some big, and for me, I have way too many! Ocassionally I am humble, but my real self comes retorting and things are back to where they were! To me, desire is the juice of life. It courses through you like a river, carving its way through the soil of your psyche. While I wait in the Arrivals area of London Heathrow, I am writing this today as one of my long longed for desire is coming true! Mum and Dad - the avid travellers, they took us for nice holidays more often than not.  It was almost every summer holidays that we visited some amazing part of India and the few others to the grand parents. It wasn't until I stepped into IT, that I thought visiting a foreign country was possible for people like us. It was around the same time that the craze loomed in the upper middle class part of the Indian society to visit the Far East countries for holiday  and the filthy rich one's to the Europe! To us it was still a distant dream! We decided to make our honeymoon a special one and hence decided to travel to a foreign land. Though the realization of that desire robbed us of all our savings at that juncture, and so yeah, in more than just one way, our honeymoon was indeed a special one! It was then, that a new desire crept in my heart! I wanted to gift my parents their first abroad travel! I offered them a trip to one of the far-east countires as there annniversary present, but they politely refused. It is very typical of parents in India to refuse any expensive form of gift from their daughters. The day I stepped in England and was awe-inspired by its beauty, I decided that this is country they will visit soon. I knew my desire is going to be fulfilled soon. It took much longer than I expected, but it has finally happened!  They are making there first abroad travel and moreover to the country my Dad always admired! Being a History student, he has the thirst to see and abrorb the beauty of this historic country. I have carefully planned each day of there stay in this country and want to make this a memorable experience for them! I longed for all this and much more, in some corner of my tired heart....

Immense Sorrow !

‘doosaron ki vedna mein vedna jo hai dikhaata, vedna se mukti ka nij harsh kewal vo chipaata …’
He that shows his grief, his sorrow to another’s grief, merely hides the joy of he himself being free from such sorrow ..

Life was better that way!

The DNA of contentment is something I never possessed. As far back as I can remember, I always wanted the next step before it was time for it. I am not sure if that really made me lose on the moment or I still managed to live it all, but no regrets and no qualms.

When I was in Junior School, I always aspired to be part of the secondary school so that I could have more fun, grab more attention, and be more on my own. It was only when I stepped in there did I start aspiring about attending college, going to University. The best thing I personally asocciated with going to university was not having to wear a school uniform, not having to be a "look alike" of your fellow classmates and chilling out and spending time in libraries and canteens. Not to carry the school lunch box and not to carry the big school bag. It is only when I was in university that I started dreaming of having a job. Going to work in a business suite, driving my own car, spending my own money and living life on my own terms.

And here I am, with a good job, decent salary, own car and I so much wish I could go back in time. Go back to the time in a junior school, where I had nothing to worry about. Those carefree days of life where there was no taxes to calculate, no bills to pay, no cooking and no cleaning to do and to top it all, there was no rat race. I miss those hot summer walks, those bumpy rides in dad's scooter, I miss mom's cooking, the tiny little piggy fund to spend on the evening with friends, those days about not having to worry about gaining any weight and eating all the junk and sweets, and never having to be on your own!....Life was better that way!